Oh Glam!

I have always have this on my mind. If I lived in the 50's, this is absolutely what I'll be doing for a living.

Salam

lamaaaaaanyaaaaa tak berblog.

ah lain kali lah! hehe!

hampir dua bulan

wah wah wah.

dekat dua bulan aku menganggur. duit simpanan dah makin nak habis. kerja masih tak cari. nak cari kerja apa pun aku tak tau. dengan dunia grafik aku dah merajuk dah. sekarang nak masuk bidang apa pun aku tak pasti. serius tak pasti. sekarang nak kemaskini resume pun tak boleh, laptop rosak. ni pun menumpang orang. peh, merempat juga hidup aku ni. masa kecil-kecil dulu memang tak pernah jangka la nak jadi macam ni, berangan kerja best je. dah kerja, tak sangka pula aku sampai dilanda trauma. peh.

i may be a bad decision maker, but i have my reasons.

i have decided to leave my job. not only the company i'm working in, but also my job. because i don't think i can go any more further with it. I've suffered enough depressions to go on.

sure there are supporters and also those who'd say "are you nuts?? have you got a new job bla bla bla.." but i'd say, it's my decision, i know what i'm doing even if it doesn't seem like i do. but i need to get out. i can't bear the pain of having to face depression after another everyday. unless they want to see me finally do something drastically and obviously stupid.

some non-supporters have no idea and some them know what i'm going through and yet, they still ask me to reconsider everything. i just can't. money is important but my mental & emotional health is my concern now.

why?

aku, tengah sibuk printing mock-up kali kedua lepas buat pembetulan. lepas siapkan isu bumper, dan balik ke rumah jam 6.30 pagi kelmarin. jam 10 pagi hari yang sama aku masuk pejabat, sambung printing. semalam buat pembetulan selepas segalanya diperiksa. malam tadi emel semula seluruh majalah. dan pagi ni dapat emel suruh print semula, macam tak boleh tengok dalam komputer. jadi, dari pagi tadi aku sampai, aku dah mula print balik. lepas tu bos masuk. aku masih berulang-alik dari meja aku ke printer.

"have you finished designing your calendar for January?"

"no. not yet."

"why?"

"i have been fucking with the amendments and reprinting that shit, haven't i?!"

okay, tak, sebenarnya aku tak cakap macam tu. aku tak jawab langsung pun. macam, what's the point pun.

HI!

lama tak jumpa, kan?

babai. :)

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dengan rasmi dan selamat.